At first I didn't notice
Relationships in my head
Develop in their own time
People talk about love languages
And I'm illiterate
I exist to love people
To care about anyone who shows me kindness
I try to navigate
To tailor my feelings to the situation
And...
I can't
Love is just love
Actions have boundaries and of that
I have total agency
I understand the nuances of categories
I embrace them as I've been taught
Inside my heart and inside my head
If I love, I care
There's no layers, no hidden agenda
I'm starting to question my deeper understanding
I confess my love more
Not to cross a line
But to try and help myself understand
This emotion I feel for many
This emotion I've been kicked into limiting
If I've loved you, I still do
Even if you've abused me
Even if you hate me
Even if you can't for whatever reason
It doesn't matter
Once the switch flips, it is on forever
Am I lucky
Am I just too emotionally charged
Sensitive becomes a pejorative
Maybe it would be healthy if I could let go
But that isn't the way my heart works
