a deep, pulsing irritation aimed
at everything and everyone
The situation is getting old
but then something stuck between mindless scrolling
reminded me of a party
A simple gathering one bright May day
Thinking about it makes me feel
warmth on my skin and joy in my heart
cutting through seasonal gloom
My friends were there
coming together from all corners
One friend was visiting from England
out of all the parties and social bullshit
he decided to visit me
He wished me a happy birthday
and gave me the sincerest hug
I remember the moment in beautiful detail
the fragrance of his humanity
birds singing over the music
everything coalescing into perfection
He smoked with me and we talked
I love the sound of his voice
The memory cuts through the gloom
shining a light into the cavern
that has become routine
and I can't stop myself from smiling
These are the moments
the profound epiphany of happiness
exemplary examples of radiant joy
Transitory though they are
they make the sadness ache a little less
the anger burn a little less
the burden of sensory perception a little lighter
Even though I ache in this moment
I feel like it is all been worth it
