He woke up itching for a fight
My hubris gave him one
Even though it was unintentional
He called me a cunt
Again
He casually mentioned killing himself
Again
I silently put my armor on
As he raged in my direction
On my way out the door, he apologized
Again
How long has it been this way
I stepped into the cold
And I sighed and said
"I love you"
And I meant it but it hurts
I walked to the place
That I see in my pleasant dreams
Outside, the picture of calm
My chest hurts
And I feel this unfathomable pain inside
I'm sobbing, I'm screaming
But you couldn't really tell
I speak of this to no one
Because of some ingrained morality
I can't help, I can't make anything better
And maybe, that's what hurts the most
